Hihi...
Woke up early today,
cause of it:
THE CONSTUCTION NOISE...
!@#$%..
here it goes again!　
haha...
Went to IMM there to shop...
Now back liao...
So sian...
Maybe zzzz later...
Tired marhx...
I at night play Sims 2..
haha...
Got online,
But appear offline...
kk...
gotta go...
BB

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Hihi=)
@#$%^&*!
My house there very noisy leh...
cannot even hear my ownself think...
longgg time neber post...
actually..
is two days only...
cos i busy playing Sims 2...
haha...
got people force me one marhx...
but i think the game ok lorx....
Just really want to sleep...
zzzz....
Just found out something...
I love the tokyo songs seh...
the new album...
very nice...
maybe going malaysia today...
yeah!...
going there eat Japan&Korean BBQ...
haha...
later come back school...
Sure gain weight de...
haha...
got to go....
buaibuai

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HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!
woo-hoo!...
haha....
Feel so free now...
Cos got back my report book liao...
thanks to Hui min...
to ppl who still have their report book at school:
Congrats!...
haha...
I now very high!...
Just came back from school...
Got cca marhx..
Meeting for a while,
then go home...
Met Xin en at school...
She like ver tired like tat..
She got day camp...
so sadzz....
haha...
Singling,
Urs and mine phobia of heights will not end leh...
so how?....
=p...
I dun wan tis to end leh....
haha...
I declare MY holidays free...
very weird right?...
haha...
my report book like kanna sai like tat...
But at least win Singling..
i got 6th in position...
Singling got 8th...
i think i noe who get 7th leh...
haha....
got to go...
buaibuai=)

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Today is a longggg and tiringggg day for me...
*tired*...
1st day:
Was like noeing wad will happen when we reached the Salvation Army there...
My bag was sooo heavy....
then they sae must walk to one meeting point,
then nobody there worhx...
So take photo...
Went back down the hill...
Then do problem solving...
Walk to camp...
was like saying "byebye" to the group over at the other side...
haha...
Mr Justin was like very angry like tat....
In the end, i think we win them...
Dunno larhx...
All i noe is tat,
i had my dinner which consist of Maggi noodles plus a few sausages....
weird combo right?...
haha...
Was like wanting to bath...
In the end, heng lorx...
I got bath...
Or i will stink to death one lorz....
Then was like sleeeping...
zzzzzzzzzz

2nd Day:
Woke up at around 5.30am...
Went to wake Jin Pei, Xin en, Eileen Koh and Muhan....
Then go tie hair...
Sianz....
then went for breakfast...
Their food like so kanna sai...
so digusting lorx...
erxin...
Then ate a little bit,
drink Milo lorx...
Then meet the trainers...
Aji and the Sofian also got Wendy....
Both of them lorx...
13 combine with 14= thir4
haha....
then went for like ice-breaking...
blahblahblah...
then lunch...
after tat....
High activities...
haiz...
i only played rock-climbing....
hehe....
then climb until hand pain...
shiok larhx....
then raining...
dinner lorx
<<>>
went for night walk..
damn scary....
was like clutching Jin Pei's hand...
she also....
then see a lot of stars seh..
sibeh good lorz...
but some ppl see shooting star...
we neber see...
=(...
go bath...
then sleep...
zzzzz...

3rd day:
got camp fire...
perform the "xishuashua"...
we perform whole song...
and 2 cheers...
but then, some of us very angry lorx....
Some ppl like the same as us...
then was like got no chance of winning...
haha....
then was like falling asleep over there...
then wake up...
Aji and Wendy was leaving tat day...
then bid our good-byes...
zzzz....

Last day...
Area cleaning...
seat there sleep...
play...
then our group win...
went home...
clear the things...
eat lunch...
Bath...
Sleepping time!....
haha...
zzzzzzz....
now is like half awake only...
sianz....
tomorrow still need go school....
must remeber to go up class....
take my report book and uniform...
then do gardening...
haha....
gtg....
byebye

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hihi....
tomorrow going to camp lerz...
whole of the sec 2 going...
i am very afraid of heights leh...
=(....
haiz...
today really sucks u noe?...
I hate this day sooo much...
damn it....
wad to do?!...
sian...
maybe going camp will be much better....
haha...
went for debate...
was ok lorz..
but listen already very weird...=.=
but e1 win....
ok lorz...
their speech is ok....
was like timing over there...
good tat i didn't be the "chairperson" over there...
haha....
knock the table,
nobody also can hear...
gtg...
bye....
I dun like him...
y must u saboh me until like tat?!...
I will get back,
Twice the consequences...
I DUN LIKE HIM!!!
eeeyer....
stupid ppl...
i not toking abt my friends here...
nothing to do with girls...
but with boys...
damn it...
=(

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"It is not how much you do, but how much love you put in the doing."
"Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful. It's the transition that's troublesome."
"Life isn't fair. It's just fairer than death, that's all."
Sorryyy for not updating.....
don't mean too...
I have no time...
Today went back to school...
when first arrived, was asked by Seet Yee y i didn't come to school...
then followed by quite a lot of ppl...
I can only tell you tat...something happened at home...
That is true...
tats my problem and there's no need for anybody to noe....
Unless i informed u...
Then went up to AVA room for a small workshop...
everybody got sweets...
I sugar-level low...
so ate...
then got lesssons lorx...
but was like sleeping/dreaming all the time....
too tired liao...
haiz....
Then went home with shermaine...
On the bus, I felt sick...
like wan to vomit like tat...
now ok liao....
Gottta go...
Buh-bye

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Today was a eventful day for me(or not!)…
Got back our overall results..
Was very unsatisfied….
But at least I passed my science…
Was like fooling around wib Jac and the others…
Play play play…
Then Woodgrove idol…
Was like sitting behid Ivan…
I wanted to sit beside jac one…
Then ivan and jia hui dun wan…
All bully me…
Then was like Singling brother sit behind me…
Theni saw ivan looking at me…
I turn around…
Then saw ivan looking at singling brother…
Was like pushing ivan to the front…
Saying singling brother got psychological disorder…
Haha,…
Ivan sae singling brother fang dian at him..
Then i sae to BZ&Jac tat Ivan see singling brother so handsome, liu saliva…
Was damn funny…
Listen to some bad songs..
4 example…
Orangewhite….
So Kanna Sai…
Haha…
Fadhilah got 2nd runner up…
Good bahx?...
Haha…
__________________________________
Heaven might be a better place...
She just passed away in the morning when i was in school...
Now feeling very unstable...
Tuesday not going to school...
Jac..thanks...
End all her suffering....
She left peacefully in the morning...
Was like feeling weird when walking home...
then now i noe wad happened..
At night then i go...
haiz...
Popo must be crying now...
haiz...
Goodbye. great grandma..leave in peace

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=( ....
Went to Vivo City today to do maths trail...
very boring...
nothing fun...
Like mad woman run around....
In the end, only do 3 questions....
Then was like walking around the mall...
playing wib Nina....
haha...
disiaoing each other...
Soorryyy...
to those at station 2 de...
I just like very fed-up wib tat stupid string and the damn question lorz....
Sooorrryyyy....
=) ...
At the bus, didn't sit with jac...
went to sit wib Nina...
was like laughing allll the way lorz...
haha...
i took like 77 photos...
haben update...
but dun have the mood too...
Went for Camp briefing..
was like so bored over there..
Met a 2e2 fren...
Penguin very funny lorz..
she became the Medical thingy thing...
haha...
then i sae,
Jun wei faint liao, Eileen go ren gong hu xi him...
haha...
very funny....
After tat went home...
Saw Her* (which is Shi Ling)
haiz...
Ignored her alll the way....
Went home...
Do my maths file thingy...
then go eat dinner...
now blogging lorz..
later playing gaia...
haha...
Cindy
______________________________
Nothing seems to be important to me anymore...
haiz...
My results has affected me in a way tat...
Nothing seems to be important...
I am not like last time...
So H-Y-P-E-R...
Now is very de dull like tat...
Doesn't seem like me...
I feel weird....
but how leh...
soo have to remain tis way lorz...
no choice...
haha...

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Mood: Sad, Angry
Why?..
for some reasons...
i failed my science...
='( ....
haiz...
Today gt malay conversation,
Thanks to some ppl,
i have a new "nickname"...
Cinema...
Weird right?!...
Cindy Mak become Cinema...
Eeeyer....
disgusting...
was like bullying bee all the way..
good tat it neber "sting" me...
haha...
Samantha joined in...
was like taking out bee's cardigan and elmo tee....
wad damn funny lorz..
hehe...
was like having a test...
sooooo sianz....
Then suddenly Mr Justin walk by...
Scare us lorz...
Then Miss Tia walk by...
Also got scare us lorz...
haha...
At the bus was even worse...
pressing the bell...
haha....
Went home after tat...
<<>>
now blogging lorz...
thinking of bringing my weapon out 2morrow...
haha...
________________________________________________
Was like wan to cry...
Reached home,
tell my mum tat i fail my sci...
She told me no need go out...
Then i started to cry in the bathroom...
was crying and crying...
Finish bath liao...
then sit down eat lunch...
My sis say my eyes..
then sae i cry..
i was like very angry and say..'
my buisness right?!
then eat lunch...
started to cry again..
Just wan to tell my mum tis:
if you dun believe tat i have studied enough for my science exam,
tats too bad...
I really cannot stand you blaming on me s if i did not study hard ehough...
U said, u wan a pass...
i told u tat very few ppl pass..
then u sae u dun care abt other ppl...
SO WAD U WAN ME TO DO?
u said my results were no good...
i told u tat i have 3 As,
u sae u dun care abt As already...
WADS U WAN WITH ME?!>..
i already tried my best...
Stop blaming me anymore...
i dun care if u dun tok to me...
I DUN CARE!...
i have better things to do...
really....
i dun wan to care liao....
MY RESULTS= MY PROBLEM...
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eating a yummy donut...
sprinkled with nuts and dipped in chocolate...
tats my dinner horz....
hehe...
i very de pissed off but a very de happy at the same time...
Got 3As...
English, Chinese, Geography...
People may say tat i very de show off...
face the fact lorz...
i only like say yea one to two times only,
then sae i show-off...
U never study then ur problem liao...
dun try to blame it on other ppl...
There is no fault in ppl getting good marks,
and there is no need for me to apologise to you for getting better marks,
.....
plus, i did nothing wrong...
really wad?!..
if u wan to do such things,
ur problem liao...
none of my buisness anymore...
i dun care!...
to those ppl who r too POLITE...
if u consider tat i am rude...
y bother toking to me?,
u r a nobody to me,
just a total STRANGER...
i dun need you to poke into my business..
and i didn't ask u to advise me did i?...
if i were to ask ppl for advice,
i would rather speak to my frens than you...
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Things have changed...
Really changed...
haiz...
My results like SHIT like tat lorz...
Study already still cannot get the results i want...
nothing is fufilled,
none in my 13+ yrs of living...
Sometimes i really think, itsn't it better off dead?!...
Maybe not...
But crying also doesn't solve the problem...
Y DID I CRY?!...
damn it...
I dun like to cry, but i feel much better after crying..
=) ...
its more soothing...
=P...
Science was like a whole pile of crap...
got 18/30 for booklet A...
Booklet B is nowhere to be found...
English was also a pile of crap but a smaller one...
Paper 1 was quite ok...
Paper 2 is a whole pile of crap!
48/80...
isn't tat shit?...
Overall 71...
haiz....
Chinese is 76/100 overall...
how i love chinese...
hehe
Maths is 61/100 overall...
was quite ok lorz...
but doesn't seem very satisfied though....
hehe...
haiz...
gtg...
~Cindy~
no commenting below tis line
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Great grandma has limited days to live...
Grandma says she is going to leave us soon....
They were discussing abt the soon-to funeral thingy...
haiz,,,
i just dun understand them...
nothing to comment...
But i hope tat i can do something and not act like a useless person..
i dun think they need me anyway...
i am not IA in such stuff...
haiz...

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hihi...
Had a very tiring day...
haiz....
nothing interesting to all of you...
really...
wad damn fed-up ytd..
dunno y leh..
i feel tat ppl r piling up all their troubles one me...
they think tat i am here to solve their problems...
aiya...
dunno y leh...
just felt like tat lorx..
felt very pissed off...
scolded a few people...
haiz...
Nobody is allowed to comment below this line,
the same rules apply...
~Cindy~
_____________________
Went to the hospital today...
Went to the ICU...
saw my great grandmother...
she was sleeping...
but i am not sure...
when we called her,
she can't open her eyes...
i was very scared...
My relatives were like saying tat my great grandma can't survive after today..
tat made me really wan to cry...
In the end, they say tat she get still survive this few days...
I hope so...
but my mum says tat to end her suffering, the best thing is to let her go...
my feelings r too emotional to say out...
but i hope all of you would understand would understand wad i am going through...
and sometimes may be in a bad-temper...
thank you :(...

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today was a pretty eventful day....
went downstairs to have breakfast,
came back to download the game...
www.highstreet5.com.sg
it is a pretty fun game...
from the look of it...
haiz...
something bad has happened....
i feel so....
soooo...
sooooooooo useless...
haiz....
here's my horoscope:
Sagittarius
Relationship elevator going up. Today you'll want to spend more time with someone you find special. That's because today the stage is set for your relationships to improve and mature. If possible, try planning something unique with that someone special. And don't let outside influences interrupt your time together.
er-hum....
we are like arguing,debating,refreeing...blah and blah with u noe who...
actually it is with singling and danial(not my class one de)...
haiz....
settle liao lorx..
only need him to sae a few words...
then settle liao...
very fast horx?...
haha....
just dun comment on anything tats below tis line...
the grey words r strictly to those who can see it...
no commenting...
pls...
wanna tok abt tat...
tok to me through msn..
thanks...
_______________________________________________
things have geeting bad to worse...
its not about my friendships bewtween my friends...
but my great-grandmother...
she is 92 years old already....
she is going to pass away soon...
tats wad my parents, grandparents and my other relatives say...
i just dun believe it...
Singapore's medical reosurces r so good,
u can't they cure my great grandmother...
I am sorry...
i am sorry tat i did'nt visit you at the hospital....
My parents didn't bring me....
I am sorry tat i didn't fufil my duty as a great grand daughter...
i noe saying sorry will not change the situation which it is now..
i can do nothing to ease your pain....
I am very sorry....
I miss you...

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Hi people...
wasting a post on Jacqueline oh's erm..enemy bahx..
had a wonderful rest at home...
haha...
wad pretty enjoyable...
Sing ling scroll down and read and pls backup me...
I strictly need some backup...
i am find a few loop-holes here and there...
thanks!
Have a nice day to all!
Cindy

To CC:
Kindly tag me from my tagboard as u can see i am just much younger than you and i don't really understand the OLD language u r saying from msn.
LAO AH PEI, when the real or fake jac* passed away of dunno wad reason, u r the one who opened ur mouth to inform jacqueline that jac* has passed away, jacqueline did not beg u to tell her, u opened ur foul mouth to tell her and i think to let her pity you OBVIOUSLY. I am not being insulting here, this is a fact and i am strictly not talking crap here. LISTEN UP! Jacqueline only said a word SORRY and must you scold her until like tat? You said that JAcqueline dun noe how to cherish people but you r absolutely WRONG... Jacquline cherish her family, her friendships. UNLIKE you who dun even noe how to cherish ur OWN LIFE!...You noe y she didn't cherish you?...u have been acting pity from the start of your relationship with her and thus she have grown tired of it SO she breaked with u at the first place. The second time u stead with her, the seneario was absolutely the SAME, but u changed a new leaf(but not all, u still resumed to ur old ways of letting people to pity u), took her back her own home and blah blah blah. U caused a fight with her parents because u had a relationship with her in the first place. Really , i am not pushing all the blame on you but u dun go and push all thr blame on jacqueline, she had a fair share. Jacqueline had tried her best to maintain the relationship and she told me tat she really enjoyed being with u...WADEVER...Do you noe y the jac* is always at ur house?...she loved u!...u did not liked her at the first place, in the end she went to australia and came back for a short break to visit u, before she left for Australia, she asked jacqueline oh to stead with you as a good-bye present to her, jacqueline didn't...jac* said tat u bought a present for jacqueline oh for valentimes day which is over a $100, jacqueline still did not stead with u...u used a couple of ways and means to ask jacqueline to stead with u, in the end u succeeded, but u broke up again. R u trying to take revenge 4 the short amount of time u had with jacqueline?...U r the one who didn't CHERISH people who r around u, U did not cherish *jac's love AT ALL, u treat her as a SISTER, nothing more, so get the facts right before pushing ALL the blame on Jacqueline.

thank you for your attention as you can see i did not used any vulgarities in this post so stop using it too.

thank you!

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So damn pissed off....
Dun wan to tell me anything...
I DUN WAN TO NOE LIAO...
Dun care..dun wan to noe...
I am so like in the dark now...
Everybody is keeping secrets from me...
Like i care....
everybody is like ignoring me...
i dunno y...
i did not do anything for the past few weeks to anger them...
y must they treat me like tat?....
i am a human too....
i noe i am so call being called an idoit..
wad u wann sae from ur mouth...
NONE OF MY BUISNESS...
u dun even need to explain..
I am just too stupid to understand ur ever so sophiscated language...
guess i am a little extra though....
u can apologise as much as you can...
you think i even care what u sae?...
everybody has theif life to live...
so do i....
i dun cry about small matters or about a bunch of friends....
I dun like to cry...
Crying makes me SICK!!!!!!!!!!
Oh ya?!....
who even understands me?...
all everybody wants is people to understand them....
i understand my fres though..
So who understands me?
there's somebody which i cannot tell...
it is not even a living thing anyway...
STOP TALKING ABOUT THIS LIAO...
my problem marhx...

MYE is finally over!...
Art was an eventful one....
haix...
Went home with jac after that...
Now someone is lecturing me...
So sianx...
i am so happy that exams are over....
haix....
i have some freedom liao....
.....
hehe...
i am so happy now..
i wish i can really scream...
haha...
ignore those words up there...
they are rubbish anyway...
there's no bother to read them...
they r just crap...
gotta go...
bye
gotta listen to more lecturing...

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Finally....
I burst into tears last night...
I feel so good now...
but there are still something that bothers me...
No solution to it....
I was ok last time it happened...
Now it happened again...
How can i make it ok again?....
Feel like crying again...
Nobody ever understands me...
I feel like a stranger when talking to every single one of my friends...
I feel like there is something they are keeping from me....
they never tell me...
so wad are friends of?...
we will be better of strangers then.
i can't even laugh like old times...
When i sleep, i worry about wad would happen the next day...
Nothing can make be back to the same old me...
NOTHING...
nothing at all....
haix...
Maths paper was ok...
Jacqueline, spare my ur groaning+complaining abt no A1 for ur maths exam...
I dun even have one A1 ok?...
haix...
haix...
haix...
haix...
Very de tired...
Feel like crying again...
Nothing will be the same again....
My Life has totally changed...
Not from Worse to better..
But bad to worse...
haix....
tomorrow will be art paper...
wish everyone luck...

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haix....
Very de T-I-R-E-D...
Science paper very de D-I-F-F-C-U-L-T....
most diffficult paper of all...
haix..
sure F-A-I-L de....
no more hope liao....
haix....
love this song

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Stress is not a funny thing to be true....
Stress, has to be controlled....
But how do people go around to control it?...
Cheering up is also a difficult thing...
It doesn't mean that u want people to cheer up means they will...
They must have the MOOD...
.....
tomorrow science exam lerx....
need to just chill out...
haix...
i can only chill by screaming...
hello?!...
do anybody need me to scream at you?....
Hope not...
haha...=.=lll
....bye....
Cindy = Hopeless
you have like you noe gone far away from me...
i dunno y....
i just feel like u r not a friend to me anymore...
you look like a stranger....
To me...

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Survey to complete, THANKS TO MY DEAR BEE aka Sing ling :

1.At what age do you wish to marry?

Answer: Where's my privacy nowadays?!...dun tell you larhx..Very P&C...haha...when find someone i like lorx..OBVIOUSLY....

2.Study hard or play hard?

Answer: To me, both are very important to me....there's time to study and there's a time to play.... so just choose the right time... I want both!...haha

3.Who is the person you trusted most?

Answer: Is that a JOKE?....i dun really trust ALL of my friends, but i do trust some of my best friends....which r listed in the friends column, but the dearest frens to me r Jac, Sing Ling and many others, without them, my secondary school life won't be so exciting...haha..they really make my day!

4. Do you think you have confidence?

Answer: Never Ever...to much confidence will lead to NO sucess....i not so HL de....haha...unlike SOMEBODY....Jac will noe who is the SOMEBODY...haha....

5. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?

Answer: Have good results for every single test and exam.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after rain?

Answer: There is a scientific fact stating liao...look in my Sec 2 science test book bahx...Under Reflection & Refraction....

7. What is your goal for this year?
Answer: Get into Top 3 in my class....

8. Do you believe in enternity love?
Answer: Depends on my mood....haha...but till now..NO...

9. Have you broken someone's heart that he/she tries to commit suicide?
Answer: Nope....

10. What feeling do you love most?
Answer: being loved and cared for...

11.What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?
Answer: No idea....

12. What feeling do you hate the most?
Answer: Being neglected and pitied

13. Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
Answer: ALWAYS.

14. Do you believe in god?
Answer: Yes

15. What do you think is the most important in your life?
Answer: My life, My whole family, My friends and My PILLOW( same as my cousin)

16.Who do you hope to be always there for you?
Answer: My whole family, My friends and MY PILLOW

17. Who is your best friend?
Answer: i can only list out some...erm...JAC, SING LING and others...these two really make my day!..and 2e3 classmates....

18. Who cares for you the most?
Answer: My family plus MY PILLOW and JAC, SING LING and other classmates of 2e3....

19. Who are the people you love most?
Answer: MY family PLUS MY PILLOW and Jac, Singling and other classmates of 2e3

20. Who do you really cherish most in your life?
Answer: My PILLOW, friendships and MY FAMILY....

** Instructions, remove one question from above and add in your own personal question. Make it a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people, list it at the end of the post. Notify them in their cbox. Who does the tag will have my blessings from all i have tagged.

• Sing Ling
• Jacqueline
• Amalina
• Shermaine
• Xin en
• Fitri
• Liyana
• Danial

thanks....

Cindy

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miss me?!...
haha...
Really did some studying today...
did science...
was ok lorx...
haha...
wad trouble can it get me?...
haha...
i really hyper today...
but very tried lorx...
haha....
IVAN, the competition is ON...
haha..
....
Cindy

should i be soo happy abt it?
maybe not bahx..
exams r here and i am
NOT serious enough...
haix...
my laughter r so fake to me...
:(....
should tis be happening to me?...

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Went for mathematic part 1 and literature exam...
Good news:
Mathematics was ok lorx....
Chinese tian xie han zi learn finish liao
maybe get 35 for my maths
Bad News:
Maybe do badly for Literature

haix...
Ivan is almost the same as me...
should i just stop the competition between the two of us...
erm....
maybe not bahx...
haix...

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Went for maths remedial at Ivan's house....
saw a few cockroaches+ lizard....
was like somebody killed the lizard just by stepping on it...
we were like toking when hui min said eeeee...
we then look up....
ivan was like screaming...
i used a stick to poke it...
then they screamed...
haha....
Was like a party over there...
Thanks to Ivan's mum who bought A LOT of food for us...
Thanks to Doreen for her direction to their house, unlike her brother who dun even noe where the house is...
haha....
thanks to ivan anyway, his house was BIG...
like some of my classmates' house...
was like learning maths and eating at the same time...
miss koh then at first very fun then she angry liao...
haix....
was like going through questions...
disturbing each other...
went home straight after that...
now revising lorx...
haha

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